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Mary Ford is dead to me

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Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s dead to to me
She’s dead to me

Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s buried in the ground

Mary Ford is dead to me
She betrayed me
No loyalty

Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s buried in the ground

Mary Ford is dead to me
She turned on me
She’s hated me

Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s buried in the ground

Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s badly hurt me
So very deeply

Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s buried in the ground

Mary Ford is dead to me
She love conspiracy
And controversy

Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s buried in the ground

Mary Ford is dead to me
Says she loves me
But really hates me

Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s buried in the ground

Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s and evil harpy
Wrecking ships at sea

Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s buried in the ground

Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s dead to me
She’s dead to me

Mary Ford is dead to me
She’s buried in the ground

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Hiding the storm

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A storm rages and rains, wind blows and swirls

Trees are uprooted and branches broken

Homes wrecked wounding little boys and girls

Never an ill word of the storm is spoken

Lives ever shattered pretend all is well

Though hurts run deep into each soul

Fear gripping each victim like a magical spell 

Masks on all keeping appearance the goal

No one can know the damage the storm wrought 

The hollowed out souls who act like normal

Broken boards, crumbled foundations on each lot

Never able to support a happy home at all

But pretending was the goal, never admit the storm

Each carrying his own burden silently the norm

Worry About Yourself

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As a man lay dying, everyone reacted
No thought, just instinct enacted
Grief, sorrow, despair over us descended
As he breathed raspy breaths and his life ended

In that moment and the ones that came after
Conflicts grew, sparks turned into fire
Egos wounded, feelings hurt, tempers flare
All worried most about themselves not what’s fair

But I cannot hold on to these hurts any longer
They do not serve me nor honor my father
So I let got even if they are said in anger
And hope everyone else can get over their bothers

Don’t like that my mom said goodbye?
You’re not the only one who cared he died.

Mad that I spent time with her later?
Really? With my mother?

Upset my sister brought sentimental things home?
But ready to ransack your mother’s own.

Thanking God for answering our prayers?
He didn’t head my cares.

Hurt you didn’t get to be by his bed as he died?
Care about me? Or only your pride?

Bitter for volunteering to avoid the service?
What did I do to deserve this?

I’ve a drinking problem for three beers that night?
You definitely don’t have that right.

My Dadd is dying, you say he’s disappointed with me?
Leave me alone. You can’t love me.

I’m getting you coffee as he draws his last breath?
I wished it was you called by death.

Bragging that you convinced him to change his benefactor?
You’ll burn in hell for ever after.

Sent me a picture of your check for his death?
You’re an empty shell, with nothing left.

Don’t tell me how to handle my Dadd’s death
You don’t know the pain I deal with
Or how badly he is missed
Your love is conditional but judgement is quick

I’m working to remove my anger from the shelf
Do what Dadd said and, “worry about yourself”

Plea to my Family

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Why are you so far?
While I guard my bleeding heart?
I try to heal and live again.
But you don’t want to call me kin?

So I am an orphan.
Father dead and mother lost.
How I could use a hand.
You’re unwilling to pay the cost.

I want your love and affection.
your attention
your relation
your devotion

Why do you leave me in need?
though you disagree
can’t you see?
why do you flee?

Don’t you care how I’m doing?
am I thriving?
or am I dying?
you aren’t asking

Was I not your loyal son?
the first born one
always so much fun
there for anyone

You’ve chosen to shun and ignore.
Letting me suffer alone and dejected.
Even turning me out of your door.
How can I feel anything but rejected?

Yet you say that you will always love me.
That you merely think my decisions are wrong.
But turning your back on one in pain isn’t family.
And leaves me searching for a new place to belong.

Wait don’t leave!

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Wait don’t leave!
Please stay I don’t want you to go
I’m not sure what’s wrong let me know
And I’ll change it and I can show
I’ll stop whatever hurt you so
Don’t leave.

Wait don’t leave!
I don’t want to be alone
Too many people have already flown
I can’t stand to hurt and moan
I’m not ready not yet grown.
Please don’t leave.

Wait don’t leave!
I hate when you do this
I cry feeling so dismissed
And my heart blind in abyss
My soul lost, and amiss
Please don’t you leave me.

Wait don’t leave!
Mom why can’t you just stay
I’m sorry you’re upset all day
I wish I could take your pain away
For you my own happiness I pay
Mom please don’t leave me.

Wait don’t leave!
Wife I know that I hurt you again
I know you hate when I look at them
I just do it to cover my pain
But don’t go and get on that plane
Wife please don’t leave me.

Wait don’t leave!
Family I know you’re not happy with me
I know that it seems I’m not listening
I know you prefer I stay with B
I was just trying to be happy
Family please don’t leave me.

Wait don’t leave!
Girlfriend I know I’m a mess
I know I’ve not given my best
I know I put your love to the test
Tore your heart from your breast
Girlfriend please don’t leave me.

Wait don’t leave!
Dad I know it is not your choice
I know you would say if you had voice
If cancer in your brain destroys
But I need you and your advice
Dad please don’t leave me.

Wait don’t leave!
Don’t you know; isn’t it clear?
I will do anything to keep you near
You leaving is my biggest fear
So much my self will disappear
So you will stay with me.