Been a While

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It’s been a while

Since you’ve hurt me this badly

It was just a matter of time sadly

When I needed you, you weren’t here

You were out with friends drinking beer

And more? How will I ever know?

I guess it wasn’t even that long ago

That you blew me off and blew someone else

Then made me feel the fault was in myself

So talented at making me the bad guy

While you have fun and roll so high

All the while blaming me for your deeds

Leaving me with my unfulfilled needs

Then mocking me for the feelings I have

Holding my broken heart as you laugh

And spit in my face while I cry

Hurting me to the point I’d rather die



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So young and insecure

I just wanted to venture

Through life with loving family

I needed you to guide me

Body changing so confused

With no idea how I should use

A razor to shave the random hairs

Filled with tremendous fears

Nothing but a bashful teen

You handed me razor and cream

No words of advice or info

Just tossed me tools and let me go

For the next few years there after

I tried to discover the answer

To why to I made myself bleed

And why my father didn’t show me

Just another thing I had to learn alone

And another failure in my home

Little Porcupine

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I love you little porcupine
Don’t you love me too?

Then why is it you hurt me so
When I’m close to you?

I love you little porcupine
Won’t you love me back?

I’d never do you any harm
Why do you attack?

I love you little porcupine
Do you love me still?

But when I hold you close to me
Pierce me with your quill?

I love you little porcupine
Will you love me soon?

Please learn to love me gentilly
I’ll die from more wounds

Building my Cage

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Born free?


Every actions and reaction

Another bar on the cage

Every hurt and every pain

Another bar on the cage

Every time I cry aloud

Another bar on the cage

Every time I shout and rage

Another bar on the cage

Every time I fight for my right

Another bar on the cage

And when I defend myself?

Another bar on the cage

Whether anger or sorrow

Another bar on the cage

When I object and lobby

Another bar on the cage

Every word, every choice

Only cages me further

Now there’s no longer room,

Only enough to lie down

And sob silently

Which was what you wanted


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Though you don’t seem to care

All it would take to revive us

Is one small breath of air

But you’d rather turn blue

And let the body perish

Rather than help us get through

The trials and the struggles

That all must endure

Instead you mock and chuckle

While life drains away

Too stubborn to help

Giving no reason to stay

More Empty Words


Waters ebb and flow
and even though
I long ago
Learned to let go
When you fail me again
With empty words
Just one more
Emotional blow
To drag my spirit low


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Already so much

The burden you make me bear

Yet you heap on more 

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